A Message of Gratitude from Brandon Janous

Brandon and Rachel Janous

To the Faithbox Community,

I’m not even sure how to begin this letter. Usually, words come easily to me but in this case, I’m struggling to find them. I don’t think you can begin to understand the impact that this community, that each of you, have had on me through the hardest days of my life.

For those that have been Faithbox members for a little while and been able to follow our story, you know that we’ve been pretty open about our cancer battle. I’ve shared videos about it with you. Rachel would pop in occasionally to talk to y’all. I’ve posted about it often on my social media. I’ve written a few blog posts. And the main reason we were so open during our journey is that we believe so much in the power of prayer.

The biggest fear that Rachel had was never dying, it was that by her dying, people would turn from Jesus. People all over the world were following our story. We never expected our posts and our blogs to go viral and have the impact that they did on so many people. That was never our intention. But when these things happened, when all these new people began to follow our story, Rachel feared, even more than before, that people would turn from Him if a miracle didn’t happen.

I’m just here to tell you that miracles happened every single day in that hospital and even around the globe! People turned to Him. Not from Him. It was one of the most beautiful things that I’ve ever witnessed. It should have been so ugly, but Rachel had a way of creating beauty in the brokenness. And she was able to help us all heal throughout this entire process. 

One of the things she said about a week before she passed away was, “I know that I’m going to die. I’m at peace with that. And at this point, all I have left to give is Jesus.”

As I sit here in my office, tears running down my face, trying to write this note to each of you, I realize that He’s all I have to give as well.

Jesus is all any of us have to give.

I hate that it took my wife dying to realize what matters most but I hope that we can all learn from her story and understand that Jesus is all we have to give. His love. His compassion. His forgiveness. His generosity. His loyalty. His grace. He’s all we have to give.

On March 1st at 4:34 PM, Rachel beat cancer! She has no more pain. She has no more tears. No more doctors’ appointments and no more treatment plans. She can worry no more. And I don’t know what you feel about dancing where you’re from, but I’m certain that Rachel is dancing with Jesus.

I’ll wrap this up by thanking each and every one of you for loving us so well. Not just me and Rachel. But our children as well. Thank you for the notes and the cards and the messages and the gifts. I want to thank you for giving me so much grace during this time. For allowing me to unplug from “real life” and to be able to be where I was needed most. Thank you for allowing the days that should have been the most stressful of my life, seem much less stressful than they should have.

To all of you, to my Faithbox family (because that’s exactly what y’all have become to me), thank you for being an example of God’s love. Thank you for lifting me up when I was down. Thank you for never giving up on me. Thank you for praying the prayers that you prayed. None of this went unnoticed or unheard.

I’m doing my best to figure out what life looks like without Rachel. I’m doing my best to find some sense of normal in a world that has very little “normal” right now. I’m trying to slowly work my way back into a routine. And sooner than later you’ll start to hear more from me and maybe even see my face occasionally. If nothing else, through all of this, I’m sure you all enjoyed the break from seeing my face in your inbox each morning!

I love y’all. I appreciate y’all. And as we say often in the Faithbox community, “We are all in this together,” and I’m so thankful I get to be in this with you.

– Brandon Janous

*Brandon and his family have been a part of the Team at Faithbox since the Summer of 2017. He and his wife, Rachel, were married for 10 years and share 3 children together. If you’d like to support their family, you can participate in the “Love Like Rachel” fundraiser.

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15 thoughts on “A Message of Gratitude from Brandon Janous”

  1. Thank you for sharing Brandon. Rachel’s Faithbox videos on anxiety are still some of my favorites yet today. I’ve shared them with family, my confirmation students, friends and watched them again and again myself. I know we’ve never met but listening to you all every morning I can’t help but feel I know all of you. Both you and Rachel have a glow about you that is contagious, because I’m quite certain that glow is the love you have for Jesus and his love shining right back through you. Thank you for letting us be a part of your story. Sending love and prayers to you and your family all the way from northern Minnesota ❤️

  2. My heart ❤️ goes out to you and your family . We are so sorry for your loss . May God comfort you and your family know and forever. Amen 🙏

  3. I am so sorry for your loss. I have been a widow for five year’s. I will keep you and your family in my prayer’s. This is a tough journey for sure. The lord walls us through and provides for our emotional needs. Huggs

  4. Thank you for sharing! We may not think that other people will find Jesus just from us sharing our story. But hearing stories like this and to see someone going through still praising Jesus is amazing. That is what draws people to him. We may not get the miracle we ask for, but if our journey can be used to lead someone to Him that’s amazing as well. We never know how something we’ve gone through can be used to help lead someone else to Jesus!!! Prayers for you and your family during this time.! Thank you for all you do!

  5. Brandon, my heart breaks for you and your family. Rachel with Jesus by her side is smiling down on you and the children.

  6. My heart breaks for you and your family. May you find comfort in this difficult time.
    Praying for you and your family

  7. You and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers for months now. I’m so truly sad to hear about Rachel’s passing. I will continue to pray for you and your family. But today I rejoice in the love that Rachel is experiencing first hand in the arms of Jesus Christ.

  8. I keep all of you in my prayers! My heart broke when I saw the news about Rachel. I can’t begin to imagine that pain. Please know how your sweet family made a difference in my prayer life. Much love to you all!

  9. Brandon, my heart breaks at reading this. But our hope and peace comes from our Lord and His promises. No more sorrow, no more pain. God bless you on this new journey. You and your family are in my prayers. Faithbox has been such a gift for me and my son, we hope you feel our love from afar.

  10. I am so very sorry for your loss!! Rachel is definitely dancing in God’s presence right now and she is completely healed. Praise God! You and your girls will continue to be in my prayers.

  11. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family! Thank you for your amazing faith and always being open to sharing it with all of us.

  12. There are no words that I can say that will help I am so sorry for you and your children are in my prayers. She did get her healing it just wasn’t the way we wanted. She is cancer free!!! No pain, sadness she is perfect and in the arms of Jesus ♥️ Prayers Kathy in Laneville,Tx

  13. Thank you Brandon for sharing your family and your love of Jesus with us. I can only hope to be like Rachel when faced with what she faced. She always showed so much strength and so much grace. I only hope to have the faith that she had. We all can learn so much from her. I have cried so many tears with you and your family. Thank you for being so open. It really does put so much into perspective for all of us to focus on the things that really matter in life because life is just too short. Continuing to pray for you and your family and asking God to surround you with His angels while you are healing.

  14. Thank you for sharing! My heart breaks for you and your children. Prayers lifted to comfort you all during this journey.

  15. Brandon,
    Our love goes out to you and your family. We were so heartbroken to hear about Rachel passing. We are grateful for the times we got to see her and her videos. Rachel’s videos for the month of Anxiety we truly my favorite!! Listening to her during a hard time in my life brought so much peace. Her voice was so soothing and her words so inspirational. She literally helped calm my anxiety and stress everyday. The world is absolutely a better place because she was in it. God bless and you all will remain in our prayers. ❤️

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